Day 392: Just One

Just One. One is the loneliest number. ONE! It's just the smallest increment of measurement! It's not a big deal, right? RIGHT?
Uh
Hmmm
Wellllllll.
Maybe it is a big deal.
Here's the thing: I didn't write my blog for ONE day. Which turned into two, which turned into 4, and now here I am doing something for the first time in 4 days - something I'm striving to do EVERY DAY.

And that's not the only thing.

It's like cleaning - you leave one dish, just ONE dish, and the dang thing breeds in the sink & pretty soon you've got you're whole sink full, and it smells, and you're ashamed, and there you are, washing your dishes all ashamed for half an hour. Boohoo, but it's your own fault: you let that one sit, and it turned into many.

Or it's like eating healthy. I'm trying to eat healthy. I'm still trying to lose weight from my pregnancy almost two years ago! Plus, just eating healthy is, well, it's just healthy. But I have what some might call a food addiction. I just love food. I think about food all the time. I want food all the time. I heard about some study somewhere that people who think about food a lot are about 20% heavier than 'normal' people. Which didn't make me feel any better - how am I supposed to change those brainwaves? I don't know, but that's off topic. Back to the ONE. So yeah, I try to eat healthy: no processed, microwaved, crappy hydrolyzed anything added, no CRAP! But then I'll justify eating one thing, just ONE thing: Oh, I'm hungry, I can eat this boxed cookie, it'll be fine. Except that it's never fine, then I'm eating any old thing that comes my way AND stopping on my way home to pick up a cold cappucino drink with who knows what's in that. And let me tell you - when I'm eating real food for two weeks, I start trimming down and my depression is much easier to manage (by the way anyone wanting to not take medication for depression: diet, exercise and VITAMIN D in liquid form - try it, you'll like it). But it's all just like that stupid chip bag says:
"Bet you can't eat just one"
Taunters
Damn taudry taunters!
NO! I CAN'T! I CAN'T JUST EAT ONE!
I'll eat several! And my body doesn't process foods like it used to, so then I'll be bloated from the salt and gain weight from the oil - and I won't get enough nutrition from the potatoe to make any difference at all.
Does that make you happy?!?
Bet you can't eat just one.

Alright, I know they're not trying to mock me or taunt me, but listen, it really does taunt me - think I don't know I can't eat just one? I know that! So I just better stick to Zero. Big fat ZERO, my pal the goose egg, zero, my hero. If I keep it all at none, than I have none to worry about and none to justify the next 15 or more.

Hope you liked the rant.



Link of the day:
Disclaimer - these are just tidbits I want to share in case someone else wants to add a little "huh" or "hmmm" or "oh, I never thought of that" to their day.
http://www.purposefairy.com/3308/15-things-you-should-give-up-in-order-to-be-happy/